Ep.9/"Healing the Inner Child for Better Parenting"
""Healing the Inner Child for Better Parenting""
Episode 9:
" As a Child, I Can Forgive You, but as a Parent, How Dare You? "
In our latest podcast episode, I take the first steps on a deeply personal journey of healing. This episode marks the beginning of a transformative exploration, one that acknowledges the challenges ahead as I navigate the complexities of childhood trauma, repressed emotions, and the lasting impact of my father's choices on my life.
Childhood trauma often casts long shadows on our adult lives, shaping our perceptions, emotions, and relationships. It's a journey where I confront the echoes of my past, particularly those originating from my father, and acknowledge the profound influence it has had on my journey as a parent.
The poignant realization, "As a child, I can forgive you, but as a parent, how dare you," becomes a powerful catalyst as I delve into the complex web of repressed feelings. My father's sacrifices, which often prioritized his goals over my childhood, come into sharp focus. These sacrifices had a profound impact, shaping my experience in ways I'm only now beginning to comprehend.
Becoming a parent myself has opened doors to emotions and questions I've long suppressed. It's a tumultuous process, marked by moments of sadness and depression that I can no longer ignore.
In this episode, I also grapple with the profound notion that I am my father's biggest failure. While my father may have achieved success in business, he fell short in his role as a parent. This revelation adds depth to my journey as I seek to understand the emotional burdens I've inherited and the impact they have on my ability to parent effectively.
Furthermore, I reflect on how this period might be my mind and body finally taking time to heal from the PTSD of my child's birth. My wife's recovery has given me the space and support to begin confronting these long-buried feelings.
In this transformative journey, my wife serves as my unwavering support system, providing the strength and understanding upon which I can depend. She stands by my side as I navigate the complexities of my past and the challenges of the present, offering solace and encouragement.
This journey is not about self-forgiveness at its outset but rather about self-discovery and awareness. It's about recognizing the emotional baggage I carry and the impact it has on my ability to parent effectively. Through self-awareness and with the support of my spouse, I begin to untangle the knots of repressed feelings and embark on a path towards greater emotional freedom.
As I begin to navigate this journey of self-awareness and healing, I acknowledge that it's not a simple task. It's a path filled with challenges, but it's also a path towards personal growth, self-compassion, and, ultimately, becoming the parent I aspire to be—loving, compassionate, and free from the burdens of my past.
Join me as I take these first steps on the path to healing, recognizing that this journey is just the beginning of a transformation that will lead to a greater understanding of myself and the ability to provide a nurturing environment for my own child, with my wife as my steadfast pillar of support.
